Stacie Orrico: So Simple

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Looking forward

Times really flies.

Still remember the times when i was just in secondary and jc studying hard for exams.

It was really stressful!

However i managed to overcome all odds to what i am today.

Somehow people try to put me down all the time but i don't care about what they say.

I just believe in myself.

I will do my part to

Encourage everyone.

Japan trip~

I am so excited about the trip

Kinda wish time would move slightly faster so that i can fly to Japan now.

I think i will go to Chinatown for dinner on the first night i'm there.

Tanoshimi ni suru yo!

Tashika ni.

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Background music: Glass Slipper

As i think,
The situation is very fair.
Who can make me cry,
Who can make me laugh.

Love is,
Just like a fairytale.
Nothing they say can change my feelings,
Instead it makes me happy.

I'm willing to sacrifice for love,
Though uncertain about the future.
The fairytale we are to complete,

Breaking my heart as we go on,
The reflection of the glass*,
Is ever so beautiful...


*Refers to the glass slipper

2 poems that i wrote for YamaP~

WHEN IT RAINS

THE RAIN COMES,
ANOTHER EXCUSE NOT TO GO OUT.
THE SUN CALMS,
AND MY HEART POUTS.

IS IT HUMAN NATURE,
YOU ASK.
TO BE LAZY IN THE FUTURE,
BUT I'D RATHER NOT CARE AND TREAT IT AS DUST.

SOMETIMES I FEEL LIKE A ROBOT,
ALL WORK AND NO PLAY.
BUT ALL THESE HAPPENINGS ARE JUST ODD,
AS I SIT ALONE TO PRAY.

IS THIS THE END,
I PONDER.
WILL IT NEVER END,
MY HEART AND SOUL WONDERS

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ENDLESS PURSUIT - PAPER CHASE

WE ARE ON A PAPER CHASE,
YOU CAN DENY.
BUT TELL IT TO MY FACE,
INDEED THEY CONNIVE.

YOU GO OUT ALONE,
BUT I DON'T CARE.
ALL YOU CONDONE,
IS AN ENDLESS FLAIR.

I WAS BLIND,
TO FALL UNDER YOUR SPELL.
BUT IT'S FINE,
MY HEAD WILL NOT SWELL.

ALL THAT REMAINS IN THIS WORLD,
IS JUST YOU AND ME.
ALL THAT I PRAY FOR IN THIS WORLD,
IS TO BE SPIRITUALLY FREE.

Safe in a crazy world~

I wish i could have magical powers and keep my friends and family safe in this

Crazy materialistic world.

Why is it that everyone loves money so much.

Is money really that important?

I wish i could have the power to make my brother happy.

I wish Singaporeans can become more generous.

I wanna learn to play tennis! Seems so fun.

'Cause i had a dream that i was holding a tennis racket swingin' away.

Fun!

The things i do for YamaP is totally outrageous.

And sorry everyone cause my internet was having problems

So i could not update for the 27th

~*Looking good*~

Is it a must to look fashionable?

I don't think it is very important.

However.

It is definitely important to look deeper into a person's heart and personality.

I always change the way i look at people according to how they look.

Meaning i like guys like YamaP.

~*LoL*~

Anyway i just quit my job.

Finally.

YamaP don't smoke at all please !

~*2007*~

I am so happy i will be spending the crossover of 2007 in Japan!

Haha it just sounds so cool to do that desho?

~*LoL*~

It has been a week of sleep, food, corrections and obsessions.

This laziness has gotta end somewhere.

And hence gathering YamaP power i will trudge through time and time to have a

splendid crossover to 2007 in Japan!

You should too!

~*Sneeze sneeze*~

I have been sneezing abit lately.

I think YamaP is thinking about me.

~*LoL*~

YamaP bring me to Hawaii!

... Shop shop shop ...

I pray that i will be able to get THE pair of havanas slippers asap!

Today i went shopping.

Yes on a friday doing what most Singaporeans will do every single day of their life.

SHOPPING.

In Orchard road.

Is there really nothing else to do desu yo?

SO its shop and food every single day fullstop.

Boring?

You think?

Thank God i am going back to work on monday.

Hopefully it won't rain so much.

Praying for a fair weather on monday

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~*luff luff*~

~*TOday's sOng*~

ずっと
作詞: 近藤ナツコ 作曲: 上野浩司

星くずを　散りばめた　空の下を　歩いた帰り道
二人きり　まだ少し　ぎこちなくて　会話もとぎれがちだけど

つないだ手と手　つながる時間　君の言葉の一つ一つから
つたわる想い　今にも泣き出しそうな瞳に　できること

星たちも見ているこの場所で
君のこと　強く抱きしめていたいから
ずっとずっと　そばにいて
君がいる　それだけで　優しくなれるから

何度でも　今なら　言えそうな言葉
それでもまだ　言えなくて

ドアまでの距離　少し　この手を離す時
思わず肩を引き寄せた　もう少しだけ　ここにいよう

星たちも見ているこの場所で
君のこと　強く抱きしめていたいから
ずっとずっと　そばにいて
君がいる　それだけで　優しくなれるから

何度でも　今なら　言えそうな言葉
「ずっと　一緒にいたい」と

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English translation:

the voices of the fading stars in the night sky
the fleeting light of the dark grey moon
I wonder why the colours of the sea we swam together
have in an instance begun to change colours?

I don't want to sleep like this forever
I want to feel you once more

even if I can't be by your side when you are lonely
you, knowing the pain of losing something
will grasp hold of another love
I pray that for you

if ever sometime you, lost within the night
come to suddenly face again that day
think of me,
smiling under that sun that's too bright
the strength of many (words of) "love" come together
even if it's changed into a love filled with tears
see that the weak hands of a strong love
hold the fragile bond

living on at this moment,
I'll always watch over you
with my love from this heart of mine

times you want to cry as well as painful times
it's alright if you think about me
a place we nestled together on that faraway summer day
the joy of the warmth that dwells
within my whole heart

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Zutto
Lyrics: Kondou Natsuko Music: Ueno Kouji

Hoshi kuzu wo chiribameta sora no shita wo aruita kaerimichi
Futari kiri mada sukoshi gikochi nakute kaiwa motogire ga chi dakedo

Tsunaidate to te tsunagaru jikan kimi no kotoba no hitotsu hitotsu kara
Tsutawaru omoi ima ni mo nakidashi sou na hitomi ni dekiru koto

Hoshi-tachi mo mite iru kono basho de
Kimi no koto tsuyoku dakishimete itai kara
Zutto zutto soba ni ite
Kimi ga iru sore dake de yasashi kunareru kara

Nando demo ima nara ie sou na kotoba
Sore demo mada ie nakute

DOA made no kyori sukoshi kono te wo hanasu toki
Omowazu kata wo hiki yoseta mou sukoshi dake koko ni iyou

Hoshi-tachi mo mite iru kono basho de
Kimi no koto tsuyoku dakishimete itai kara
Zutto zutto soba ni ite
Kimi ga iru sore dake de yasashiku nareru kara

Nando demo ima nara ie sou na kotoba
“Zutto issho ni itai” to

~*Kurosagi*~

I watched Kurosagi like 3 times!

And this time i got a clearer picture of the show.

It's actually a really sad show.

It talks about how people in the world cheat one another for money.

Monetary gains are indeed evil.

Hence,

Money IS the ROOT of all evil.

But,

Without money we can't do much.

Such a dilemma desho?

This world is too materialistic don't you think so?

I wish everyone could just stop whatever they are doing one day and

really think what they want in life.

Rather than just making more and more money....

Cherish

Today's Song:

チェリッシュ
作詞: 福士健太郎 作曲: 福士健太郎

見つめるたびに恋　迷いも影もない
君の笑顔で　僕の合図で　僕らだけの夢を探そう

屈託のない強がりを言うコトもない　先回りして思い悩むコトもない
リラックスして頑張ってる姿見て　なんだかふと勇気湧いた気分

「こうしたい」ってコトが揺らぐときもある
そんなときはKISSできるくらい近付いて・・・

見つめるたびに恋　感じたまま瞳 覗きたくて　素直になって　ココに立ってるのさ
そんなに楽じゃない　だからそばにいたい
悲しみ去って　情熱知って　まだ進んでゆくよ

ウソはヘタだし　真実は残酷だし
たまに弱気　君が味方で強気
分かってるコト多すぎて　すれ違うコトもあったけど

いつからかやっと　無くしたくない
大事なモノ少し　一緒に見つけたよね　ほら
ここに　これからも・・・

見つめるたびに恋　感じたまま瞳
覗きたくて　素直になって　ココで待ってるのさ
見つめるたびに恋　迷いも影もない
君の笑顔で　僕の合図で　僕らだけの夢を探そう

まだ知らない明日のHAPPY　物語は僕らでつくろう

見つめるたびに恋　感じたまま瞳
覗きたくて　素直になって　ココに立ってるのさ
見つけたときは恋　今じゃ大きな愛
未来の君をステキにしよう　僕らだけの夢を作ろう

チェリッシュ

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Romaji:

CHIERISSHU
Lyrics: Fukushi Kentarou Music: Fukushi Kentarou

Mitsumeru tabi ni koi mayoi mo kage mo nai
Kimi no egao de boku no aizu de bokura dake no yume wo sagasou

Kuttaku no nai tsuyogari wo iu koto mo nai saki mawari shite omoi nayamu koto mo nai
Rirakkusu shite ganbatteru sugatamite nan daka futo yuuki waita kibun

“Koushitai” tte koto ga yuragu toki mo aru
Sonna toki wa KISS dekiru kurai chikaduite ...

Mitsumeru tabi ni koi kanjita mama hitomi
Nozoki takute sunao ni natte koko ni tatteru no sa
Sonna ni raku ja nai dakara soba ni itai
Kanashimi satte jounetsu shitte mada susun de yuku yo

Uso wa heta dashi shinjitsu wa zankoku dashi
Tama ni yowaki kimi ga mikata de tsuyoki
Wakatteru koto oosugite sure chigau koto mo atta kedo

Itsukara kayatto naku shitaku nai
Daiji na mono sukoshi isshoni mitsuketa yo ne hora
Koko ni kore kara mo...

Mitsu meru tabi ni koi kanjita mama hitomi
Nozoki takute sunao ni natte koko de matteru no sa
Mitsumeru tabi ni koi mayoi mo kage mo nai
Kimi no egao de boku no aizu de bokura dake no yume wo sagasou

Mada shira nai asu no HAPPY monogatari wa bokura de tsukurou

Mitsumeru tabi ni koi kanjita mama hitomi
Nozoki takute sunao ni natte koko ni tatteru no sa
Mitsuketa toki wa koi ima ja ooki na ai
Mirai no kimi wo suteki ni shiyou bokura dake no yume wo tsukurou

CHIERISSHU

Stradled.

I find it very hard to please everyone.

It is such a chore to make everyone happy.

So i really admire YamaP for that.

He is so diplomatic and he can make everyone happy.

But i find that extremely difficult and tiresome.

So i am going to sleep now.

Too tired to think straight anymore.

I miss YamaP.

I have been experiencing pain on my left hand and right hand recently.

And i use them as signs to make decisions.

Because making decisions can be a real headache you know!

Today i went out with my granny, aunt and mum and dad to buy long johns!

For the winter season.

It's gonna be really fun seeing snow for the first time!

Actually i love reading signs.

It keeps me sane in a crazy world.

Excluding YamaP of course.

Seriously.

I think without YamaP by my side i can really go crazy.

Other than that i have been watching the NHK channel.

It's really boring besides the occassional informative lifestyle programs.

Doo shiyo.

One week break is really long desho.

Daite Senyoriita.

YamaP!

I just wanna be honest with you!

I can't be the person i was before anymore.

I just wanna be with you!

Take me away!

A bad dream.

God reminded me of something bad.

What have i done..

It was defintely something bad.

If not he wouldn't give me such a horrible dream.

What have i done wrong?

I don't think i will be able to sleep well tonight.

HOW!

This is very bad.

Just give me a sign and tell me what went wrong.

Oh man just tell me and stop making me guess.

I know religion is a sensitive issue but everyone has to face it eventually, right?

It is definitely a need and we need to face it.

Maslow's behavioural pyramid says so!

Stop making me guess and tell me the truth!

WHAT HAVE I DONE?

Nothing i do can ever change fate though right?

I wanna go hawaii~~~~

YamaP... bring me to Hawaii..

Remember..

Please don't forget.

I wanna go to Kyoto now..

25 days is too long desho?

Are we really too young?

Will everything be the same 10 years from now?

I really wonder..

I just wanna watch the sunset and sunrise with you everyday.

~*Grinz*~

To cry or not to cry?

I hope my parents will go back to normal.

They have acted weird enough, long enough.

Today i was listening to my favourite song by atomic kittens, cradle.

And i thought about YamaPi.

Like why he doesn't reply me at all.

So i went out by myself to get some girlie necessities and chocolate!

But i ended up buying waffle loackers,

~*LoL*~

I am so excited about Japan trip~

Still counting down 25 days ...

YamaPi i'm coming to look for you!

So hang around harajuku or something ok?

~*Hopes and prays that we meet*~

Luff luff~

Trusting your dream.

Have you ever woke up in the morning trying to recall what you have dreamt about
the night b4? It always happens to me. And i get really annoyed if i forget about what i have been dreaming about the previous night. I think dreams are really beautiful. They give me a really refreshed feeling in the morning and i won't have to worry about the things that happened the previous day. Isn't that great?

If dreams can serve the purpose of washing away our troubles.

~*Luff*~

I want God to show me my life purpose through my dreams..

And i will pray about it. Hopefully it comes true..Sigh,

And i will trust it. You should too. CIAO`

The Right Signs

I have been searching for you within my heart,
But your vague appearance leaves me lost.
I struggled to keep myself sane when we're apart,
Counting down to the days when i will see snow for the first time.

Will you stop and say hi if we meet,
Or will you just pass by my side.
No one around me understands this love deep inside,
But none of their impressions bothers my belief.

I try harder and harder each time,
Just to save myself from this crazy world.
But everyone thinks i'm just having fun,
But i won't stop even if the signs fade.

Endlessly searching for the right signs,
Through the thoughts and eyes of others.
Is this the right sign,
You ask yourself when you look up.

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My love for Yamapi rose a notch!

Can't wait for death note part II to come out!

~*Grinz*~

So tired..

Yesterday met up with Jeremy, sy and gang.

Really wanna thank all of them for remembering my birthday and celebrating with me.

The chocolate cake was really yummy..

My brother and mum were like enjoying the cake more than me

~*Luffs*~

Nothing much happened actually.

It was a simple and normal 23rd birthday

~*smiles*~

And we took alot of photos.

Talk about camera whoring..

Will try to post it up on our group blog if no one comes on msn

Espirit is the best place to shop ard for pink stuff!

I bought a cap, a scarf and a pink notebook!

Haha and i just bought them out of impulse!

~*frown*~

And also a black windbreaker from Mango!

It's only $99!

when it rains

But i prefer this..

I don't know how i did it but its really inspiring to listen to YamaP's voice.

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THE rain comes,
Another excuse not to go out.
The sun calms,
And my heart pout.

Is it human nature?
You ask.
To be lazy in the future,
I'd rather not care treating it like dust.

Sometimes i feel like a robot,
All work and no play.
But all these happenings are just odd,
As i sit alone to pray.

Is this the end,
I ponder.
Will it never ever end?
My heart and soul wonders...

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Once again thanks everyone for well wishes!

Really made my day and to write better stuff for everyone to read ~*Smiles*~

Still waiting for my hp to ring ...

I wrote a poem again...

~The Strength to move on~

Because love gives me the strength,
I can wake up in the morning.
Because true love makes me luff,
I can wake up crying.

What is it that you want?
I ask in my head.
The incessant call,
My true love.

I fear the truth,
It stings.
I fear reality,
It's scary.

What is this thing, love.
Giving also means receiving.
Has it not always been the case,
For everyone in the world...

Incessant dream.

I am always hoping that YamaP calls me.

But when my phone rings i always see a familiar number/person.

This time i am going to pray about it.

The next time i see an unfamiliar number,

I know its gonna be YamaP!

I will pick up the phone so fast as lightning you can't even imgagine!

I am so lonely without YamaP~!

I'll keep waiting..

Thanks everyone for birthday well wishes! ~*Smiles*~

I am refreshed~! Today!

Today i dug up some of my old cds to listen to and i found Sun's newest album.
It was like she was calling out to me to listen to her beautiful voice. ~LoL~
Anywayz, i cried abit when i listened to ccc hiding place and so i started to feel nostalgic. Sun is a really great person. She is doing so much to help others. Sometimes i feel quite inferior compared to Sun. Sun is power! No pun intended.

~*LoL*~

Is it me or am i so not funny at all. Or i really can't make pple luff ~*Sniff*~

~The Rainbow Star~

Yamapi seems to be fascinated with rainbows nowadays.

I wonder why it is so special to him.

Is it a coincidence?

Or is it fate that played a part.

Anyway,

I was bored so i wrote a poem.

Here goes nothing..

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I believe in life there is something
called fate. No matter what we do,
Fate follows us like a shadow.

I am so happy that i can breathe the
air you breathe.
I am so happy i can walk the walk
and talk the talk.

My inspiration is you.

My everything is what you are,
So i don't have to sleep.
Because all i need is your love,
And it gives me strength.

Yamapi! My first love and,
my prince in shining armor.
I will love you everyday,
like there's no tomorrow.

Forever it will be this way.

Out of sight, Out of mind~

DO you believe that someone who is out of your immediate view will also disappear in your thoughts? I think it is possible because i kept all my Kame posters and photographs and replaced it with Yamapi photos and posters all around my room. Feel like painting my room pink! Baby pink is cool lol. Ugh well. Poor Yamapi works so hard everyday and here i am happily doing nothing at home. Hmm mayb i shd find a new job that is less stressful. Teaching is cool lol. Think i might start with relief first since they insist that i teach primary school the last time. Will definitely need some getting used to in terms of handling small kids. They are a really difficult bunch! Kids just cannot sit still. Cannot obey instructions unless you scream at them. But one thing cool about kids is that they are really compassionate. They can understand the teacher's frustrations sometimes. However difficult kids i really cant handle. Thats why i quit previously. ANYWAY!

I have decided to give it a try again! To teach in a primary school first or something then later move on to secondary schools. Hope they can offer me something i want. Ciao~

rejection

Why is it that guys i like always dont like me and guys i dont like always like me.

WHY!

WHY!

WHY!

Argh.

I am soOooOoo super annoyed right now =(

The Simple things in life

Lately i lost the urge to blog.

Like there isn't any motivation to do anything at all.

I really wonder why this is the case.

Singapore is perhaps only this interesting.

And that's it nothing else.

I went to lucky plaza today and i saw that they sell cameras and cool gadgets.

Never knew a place for maids to hangout actually sell ipod and the cool sony camera

Yes! It's the pink one that i have been eyeing all along.

Girls just love anything pink desho?

～笑

I must get it!

Waiting for next month's pay to come.. Yippee..

2 become 1

Candle light and soul forever
a dream of you and me together,
Say you believe it, say you believe it.
Free your mind of doubt and danger,
be for real don't be a stranger,
We can achieve it, we can achieve it
Come a little bit closer baby, get it on get it on,
'Cause tonight is the night when 2 become 1.

I need some love like i never needed love b4
I had a little love, now i'm back for more.
Set your spirit free, it's the only way to be.

Silly games that you were playing,
empty words we both were saying,
Let's work it out boy, let's work it out boy,
Any deal that we endeavour,
boys and girls feel good together,
Take it or leave it, take it or leave it.

Are you as good as i remember baby,
get it on, get it on,
'Cause tonight is the night when 2 become 1..

~My 3rD time~

This is my third time watching kurosagi.

And each time i watch it,

I understand YamaP a little bit more.

Everyone pls watch Kurosagi with a broad heart!

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Fate

Sometimes if things weren't planned would everything eventually find its way out?

I always feel that people are out to get even,

It's like there is always this feeling of hatred in them

I must win!

Is how everyone thinks.

Is this how the world is made out to be?

Insecurity is probably the reason why everyone feels like that.

I hope everyone gets what i'm saying

The type of guy that i like.

I like the Yamapi who sits in the park alone listening to Ketsumeishi.

You totally made me fall in love with the song and fall in love with you.

I like the Ryo who made me cry in every single episode of Ichi Ritoru no Namida.

You are so cool and sexy. Luffs.

I like the Kamenashi Kazuya in Sapuri and in variety shows.

You are so real and never fake.

JE produces the best boys on earth!

Time please move faster!

Sometimes i feel that time should go faster.

Time is moving too slowly!

Sometimes i just wanna enjoy the moment doing the things that i want to do.

Something really weird happened last night.

My parents knew that i went out to post my letter to Pi.

It was really scary seeing my dad at the door when i came home.

I got a shock! Like totally Akira shocku! (haha been watching Nobuta again!)

Like how did they know!

Sometimes i feel that my parents can be really weird and scary.

Naze darou.. Sonna ni hen da. ^_^

Will you cry for me if i cry for you Yamapi.

Will you.

In Yamapi's diary: 26 Oct 2006

The clock ticking in my head is getting louder everyday

As i have been waking up cho early..

He talked about going to the umi today.

Ah.. i also wanna go..

Reminds me of the days when i was really fervent about going to Hawaii.

But couldn't cause i was so darn poor with just $400 allowance a month,

Sun bathing days are so over now that i must take care of my complexion.

As per Yamapi's new TBC CM.

"Mirai no image shite, ima o ikiteimasu"

No choice!

But i wasn't as excited when i first got my license.

Don't know why!

Mayb cause everyone around me already has one larh. Probably that's why...

Lalalala so happy nowadays yet i can only share with everyone who comes to my page.

Wish i could share with the whole world !

~LoL~

~*~*~*Dreams*~*~*~

Lately i have been having weird dreams.

I dreamt of insects last night!

And i woke up feeling really really worried desho.

I think something weird is happening around me.

I don't know what it is but i definitely feel worried.

Like something bad will happen.

This feeling is very very worrying.

If only i could be as optimistic as Yamapi.

His jweb always lift my spirits up.

Instantly!

It is a really really nice feeling deep down inside.

I can't put it into words properly but the only thing is ...

I think Yamapi is a really great guy and we are lucky to be his fans.

But he is too Pi perfect to be with one person alone.

He should belong to the world..

And mayb one day the world will become a Yamapi world!

With Yamapi posters everywhere!

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Love Yamapi everyday like there's no tomorrow ～笑～笑～笑