MET UP WITH GINA YESTERDAY~!

Ok sorry that ive changed the bg and that now everything i say is illegible. Hey good things come with a cost okay~ So what u gotta do is. Right click on screen and select all. Then problem solved! Haha. Priority of a nice shuuji to akira bg overides all consumer handling. hehe of course of some of u will nvr think of doing that to begin with so i duno how u gonna even read this part so wat da bleah im just gonna go on.

Saa,

Yesterday evening went out with Gina after rushing home from work to give tuition. 2 tuitions straight! Ugh. Demo tsukareranai da. Managed to rush down to orchard again to meet Gina and we ate at ex-Marche haha. Now its called the Village or something. For what purpose they changed the name i do not know. And we talked so much bout er stuff~ haha.. As usual our dear Gina is always surrounded by guys. Anw glad that she has found someone new in her life~ Well not very new but new enough. It's really a new beginning and im really excited for her. 2 years time she'll be going London to study~ Happening sa.. Hai. And im still here in spore. When is my Jappie prince charming gonna appear?? When? Itsu ka.. (continues to let mind wonder off into the distant future) ..

.. Ok back.

Eeto. my aunt is finally back from Japan with my chiketto! Yay! My pass to another dimension is finally here! Wish it was a one way ticket that way i'd nvr have to come back. Aa.. forever and ever in Japan.. Living in a wonderland. Haha! Why am i always day dreaming. Hmm. And Yamapi loves Hawaii. And i used to love Hawaii too. Yay! We have something in common! So happy! Ok i feel super bimbotic today coz later learning Jap with Amos kun. And gonna teach aaron piano. Hai hai. gotta go brush up my jappie now. If not Amos kun will be disappointed with my development. Ja ne!

~I FEEL SO LOVED~

After browsing through forums after forums, i finally found a shop in Spore that sells all JE stuff! It's called ~MiseS*clusive~ You won't believe what i found! So many pics of Yamapi and Kame on the walls! I almost fainted man. It was filled with NewS, KAT-TUN and all the members of JE. I could have bought the entire shop down i tell ya. Best part is .. (screams and throws confetti) i can pre order the ~Shuuji to Akira~ album!! Yay!! They will ship all de way from Japan can? So happy! Ureshii na~

Yup. So i can happily wait for my stuff to come. Tanoshimi ni shiteru yo ne~

And also, i've been thinkin about my walk with God.

Lately, i could feel that there are too many distractions in this world that could affect my love for God. It's like, I want to know him more but he is just so far away. Sis Jerb always tells us to draw near to God and he will draw near to you. But sometimes i just dont know how to draw near to him. I mean. During praise and worship is the only time i feel that God is with me and my goosebumps really come up! Kim knows haha. Its really nerve wrecking. I feel that time passes so quickly during praise and worship. Sometimes i just wanna stay in the presence of God forever and ever.. It feels that for a moment i am not alone anymore. Cause Jesus is right by my side. And i feel so safe and loved.

Sigh. Suting just left for KL for mission trip today. How great. That she's doing work for God now. Feel that she will be back so transformed~ The last talk that we had before she left really impacted me. For a moment i felt like i really had an older sister! Haha actually i always hoped for an older brother. But older sister also can lah! So happy that i am blessed with Suting in my life. Somehow i feel that love is like a disease.. It spreads. Yea it really does! When someone loves u, somehow u would feel like spreading it to someone else and that someone else to someone else and so on and so forth. Wouldn't that make terrorists seem extremely infantile? Mochiron sa.

I feel that mayb i shouldn't worry so much anymore. Because life only gets tougher from here. I have to persevere from here. I must make pple like me more~! And i am speaking from experience. Really don't get it. What's wrong with me? Why they dun accept me? Third time ne! I feel so defeated and distraught. I thought about it. For 2 days. And i think i i finally got it. They are an exclusive club. So they only CHOOSE the people that they ~like~ You know why. Cause both times i got the same kinda reaction.. From the male ones especially. I don't know why but male interviewers always dun like me! Whenever i go for a job interview, i never get the job if it was a male who interviewed me. So cheezed off man. And on the other hand, i would for sure get the job if i had gotten a female interviewer. True for all 6 interviews i had been until today. The most irritating thing is. They dun even bother to look at me when i'm talking. Sometimes i wish i could scream and tell them "Hey! I'm talkin over here!" But because i am cool and i love pple i shant throw my weight ard male chauvinists. (Literally~) Hate it when these guys think they own the world. EEKS! Good thing i have practiced composure from scb. Male chauvinists make me sick and i wanna puke!

Thank God God is not lidat. Hai. Thats why house of God is still the best. And pple who love God are still the best. So i have decided to spend 15 mins praying everyday from today. So pray more.. study my jappie.. and attend jap tuition with Amos kun! God is really great! He has planned an itinery for me so i wont feel lost without him by my side everytime.

Yoshi. From today on i will persevere and i wont be flighty anymore! haha. I was described as flighty by my sec sch frens and since we are almost 75% made up by what others think we are i guess i was flighty then. But now i am rooted in church so i am not flighty anymore! I belong to God! Yay! Revelation! OK time to study Jap den pray den slp. Oyasumi!

PRECIOUS ONE

作詞: 新美香・白井裕紀
作曲:　三上吉直

Time goes by僕らは　いくつもの出会いと別れをくり返す
Here I am　誰かの　優しさに甘えて何かを見失った

今　過ぎ去った季節を数え　1人きりの夜何を思う？

Sometime時になぜか　胸に迫るloneliness
I don't want to be all alone　切なくて

One dayいつの日にか　見つかるさprecious one
空見上げれば　ほらね　ひとつのshining star

Tell me whyどうして　僕たちはこんなに愛を求めるのかな？

Ahh…　星空は正直だね　優しくきらめき夜を飾る

Somewhereどこかにいる　大切なonly one
You're not all alone anymore　1人じゃない

Somedayいつか会える　運命のsomeone you'll love
ふと気がつけば　ほらね　君のそばにいる

たとえmillion years時が過ぎても
We never change　No worries　You'll be alright
Your precious only one必ず出会えるさ
One day you'll findこの地球(ほし)で　I believe in love
ずっと

Sometime時になぜか　胸に迫るloneliness
I don't want to be all alone　切なくて

Somewhereどこかにいる　大切なonly one
You're not all alone anymore　1人じゃない

Somedayいつか会える　運命のsomeone you love
ふと気がつけば　ほらね　君のそばにいる
君がそばにいる
You'll meet your only one

Somewhereどこかにいる　大切なonly one
You're not all alone anymore　1人じゃない

Sometime時になぜか　胸に迫るloneliness
I don't want to be all alone only one









I know i said i wanted to post on Dr AR Bernard's services so here it is!

I'm gonna summarize everything he has said in 3 services in one post so i am being really ambitious here. And believe me this is very very much reduced to the limits of my knowledge. So this is not exhaustive ok. Well, from what i've gathered and learnt, we are all limited to the knowledge in our minds and to the contents of our character. Also, knowledge can bring you to a place where character alone cannot. Hence, the church becomes an agent of God and reveals to the world how much he has given up for us. The church also becomes a place where we learn more about God and how we can glorify him through subtle actions. So naturally, if the church gives a wrong interpretation of Jesus to the world, people grow to have a problem with the church and not Jesus himself. Ya so we are all stuck in an impasse where the natural world does not meet the spiritual world. Education is so important, i cannot stress enough. To the church, education is hence the impartation of life and not just knowledge alone. See how Dr AR Bernard sees things so differently! Well, he says knowledge translates to authority and ignorance becomes a weakness. And most importantly, ignorance is having a stubborn attitude. Stubborn to be taught. Therefore we have to learn to navigate in this world against us. Our lives are also ruled by what we have and do not have and God created an open universe. So that we can choose to love him or not. This is positive freedom (sounds familiar). And true love only comes from the freedom to choose. So now love becomes centered in the will and not in one's emotions. So us human beings become empowered as agents of change. God gave us resources and relationships so that we can advance in life. So we are social creatures bu design. Having said that, we shd then note that when making frens, we shd firstly get acquainted, then take relation to a higher level and then accept each others friendship or share more intimate details with the person. The word of God will change your life and bring healing and transformation to society where the word becomes flesh!





I am so learning Jap the hard way by having a personal tutor. Wah he is really good! Everything also can understand ne! So blessed to have such a gud tutor lah! Happening man! Coz im learning thru song lyrics and smses. Realized the textbook which im holding is too rigid. Though i shd still read it for basic knowledge. So i've decided to work around my interest first, and that's Yamapi's songs and KAT-TUN! Amongst others. This is all written when i am 30% asleep so pls do not blame me if i sound rather non coherent. Sore ja, mata ne!

"COLOURFUL" - YAMASHITA TOMOHISA

This song is so great i just have to post it up again!! Enjoy!! Kakko ii Yamapi!!

Um i really wanted to blog more on the service and my new great tutor but i have so much to memorize i simply have no time! Jikan ga nai kedo.. Ima moo shigotochuu.. Jikan ga hontoo ni osoku kashira.. >_<

JUST IN CASE YOU WERE WONDERING...

The title actually reads. Obssessed with the beautiful things in life~! Keke. And i really learnt so much from Dr AR Bernard. He sounds like some university lecturer can! For a moment i was back in nus sitting in lecture struggling to keep awake as my thoughts wondered away. But it was really great. Edifying 3 services. Will post up what i have gathered once i have the time. Meanwhile i have changed the song on my blog to "Colourful" from the album Shuuji to Akira sung by Yamapi~ He wrote the lyrics to the song and i love the meaning behind it~! Will try to translate it if i have the time.. So for now just enjoy the strength and power this song exudes!



カラフル
作詞: 山下智久 作曲: 森本康介

誰か教えて どこに行けばいい?
誰か教えて 僕にできること
見上げれば雨 振り向けば壁
ただの景色さえ切なさを増す

夜明け前
一人きり あてもなく歩いても見つからない

何度答え探しても
考えるほどわからない
目に入る光を受けて
一歩ずつ歩いてみるか
月を見上げてみる

あの日あの時 奪われた鼓動
取り返すんだ 赤い情熱

あの黒い闇越えて
つきまとう影さえも消してやる

見えないものに立ち向かう
希望・勇気手に入れろ
明日へ続く道のりを
一歩ずつ踏み出してみる
未来に祈るように

あの黒い闇越えて
探すんだ 無限の青い空

いくら探し続けても
答えなんてわからない
目に入る光を受けて
心のままに進むんだ
夜が明けてゆく

見えないものに立ち向かう
希望・勇気手に入れろ
明日へ続く道のりを
一歩ずつ踏み出してみる
未来に祈るように
月を見上げてみる
カラフルな世界へ

ISNT HE THE CUTEST THING ON EARTH??

A Jap aired commercial advertisement of Yamapi where the sales personnel is dazed over his breath. Haha! Omoshiroi ~!!

HAVING A PASSION.

I've always been thinking alot and i am known to others as a thinker. I tend to think alot and as a matter of fact too much. Everytime i step into a different phase in life i change myself. Sometimes i think of myself as a chameleon. Blending nicely into the background but never standing out. Does that mean i can never be a leader? And i can never lead a group of people? I shudder at my incompetence. Been watching lotsa jap dramas lately and especially those of JE (Johnny's Entertainment). Just in case you were wondering its a japanese media company which raises pretty boys to fame. If you have watched those videos i've posted, that's a glimpse of how sugoi they are! Love them to bits! Well read a translation of Yamapi's Jweb (which is his online web diary) and i found out that actually Japanese want to emulate Americans! Apparently Yamapi adores Elvis Presley and he listens to Red Hot Chilli Peppers on the shinkansen! Lmao. And here we are admiring them like there's no tomorrow. Watching all their dramas and crying bitterly over how touching their lives can get. Seems like we can never be contented with what we have and will always seek for something beyond that horizon. Which is why having a passion for life is so darn important. When you live life with a sheer passion for living, then why do you need to ask for things you can never have when your passion is life itself and not the matters of life per se. That's what God ever wanted from us isn't it. A clean heart and a passion for life. To love ourselves so much that God himself will be pleased with how much we treasure his only gift. Don't know why but watching jap dramas sparked my thoughts so much so that it gave me the confidence to pursue my dream again. I will succeed! One day!

TRUST

In this life as long as one person believes in something, that object naturally becomes alive and real. However, if no one believes that it actually is in existence, then that object just becomes a figment of our imagination. It becomes a make belief. Where people just talk and forget about. But it actually makes no difference to people’s lives. Trust. How tricky. In the world there are only 2 kinds of people then. People who are trusted and people who are not. Is there a truth in the light? Or rather does it matter at all. To anyone. Does truth even matter at all? So what if we know the truth? So what if we were being lied to. Does the truth make anyone feel better? If lying makes us feel better then why not lie to ourselves. It’s all about feeling good and happy and making others feel good and happy. Sometimes it is alright to lie as long as it does not damage a person’s integrity; it should be fine to lie. No? I hope someone agrees with me.

UCHI MO SUKI DA NA...

Oh man! He is so chio! And he's lighter than me! How can this be! I am so motivated to get back to my original weight of 45kg. I must do it! Ganbatte ikimasshoi! Er now i'm beginning to like Uchi slightly more. Cuz he looks so yummy and pretty.. Geez. The L syndrome is getting to me again... Why why these jap guys are so skinny.. Jealous.. >_<

RYO ESCAPADE!

Today's surmon was not too bad. These few days pastor talked about koi desu ne. Yup. And it would definitely benefit the brothers alot. Being a man and all haha and our church so many boy boy one.. Sometimes i wonder if i came to church because i wanted to escape. If not for that i think i would nvr take the first step to know God. Did God deliberately plan to test my faith by taking loved ones away from me? If he has indeed planned for that to happen then why is he constantly testing me day after day knowing that i have alrdy accepted his salvation and regarded him as my one and only saviour? What does Got want in my life realli? Suppose i have alrdy learnt to grow stronger emotionally and keep myself emotionally detached, why so is God still trying to test it daily!! Sometimes i feel like i cannot take it. The emotional burdens keep coming back to haunt me and i feel like i just wanna run away. Have always been trying to meet other people's expectations of myself unknowingly. Including close friends and relatives. This is really causing me unecessary fear. Is it fear from God? Or otherwise. And im not really sure what i wanna do with this little time that God has given to me. Sometimes i wonder if dreams really do come true. If you are there, redirect my path, teach me to love u more and do things that will truly glorify your name! All i wanna do is to seek your face and trust in you coz only you can understand true love and true happiness.


I watched this and i almost died in the 2:30 min mark because Ryo's voice completely melted my heart.





Lyrics Translations...


Today people are destined to meet
In that far, far western city
If you're going to fall in love, then start at Midosuji
An elegant story

We were lost that day
We were stubborn and hurt each other
I watched you run off and disappear at Umeda Station

You said this town's speech is vulgar
But I won't change
I'll say, "I love ya"

I'll search for you and hold you
Faster, faster, running after you
People come to Shinsaibashi for love
An elegant story

You loved the gardens of Naniwa
From where we frolicked together in the ferris wheel
We could see Kobe; I believed those days would continue forever

My heart longs for the remnants
Though I think it might be too late
"I still love ya"

Where shall I chase you to?
North, to Minami Ebisubashi
I want to start our love over again from Midosuji
An elegant story

You looked back at the intersection
Gazing at me
I can't forget your tender voice
Time has stopped

Today people are destined to meet
In that far, far western city
If you're going to fall in love, then start at Midosuji
An elegant story

I'll search for you and hold you
Soon, soon, running after you
People come to Shinsaibashi for love
An elegant story





And suddenly my dream bubbles started to pop.

DAILY DOSE OF RYO !

Osaka e ikitai !! Mazu rainen no shi gatsu wa Nihon e ikou to omoimasu ! Tanoshimi ni shimasu ~ Ahh. Nishikido kun wa daisuki!

Ryo-chan so cute ! When they interviewed him in the middle of the clip, he was doing the hand thingie that they do in the "Cherish" mv.. So kawaii !! Sometimes i think they act rather feminine but .. what the bleah they are so cute ! Its girlie but its so cute.. it makes u obsessed. hahaha

SPECIAL HAPPINESS by KAT-TUN

朝目覚め繰り返す生活
太陽の光の中　君は　僕の腕の中で

目覚ましが鳴り響く中で
時計の針が進んでいく　どんな夢を見てる？

忘れない　2人繋いだ手と手　温かい温もり
思い出を　沢山作ろう

*2 これからの2人には　どんな2人が待ってるの？
特別なんて何もいらない　君が笑うだけ
好きだから不安だよ　感じる今このすべてが
そっと抱きしめ愛を確かめるから　目を開けたその時

はしゃぎまわる　猫のように
僕の心の中にそっと　いつも傍にいるから

繰り返す事のない失敗なんて
忘れてさ　2人で行こうよ　夢の中へ

僕らには　何が必要なんだろう
答えは誰も知らない
愛の涙　いくらでも流せばいい

強がりな君だけど　見せる子供のような目を
流した涙　全て受け止め　包み込むよ
頼りない僕だけど　君を想うよ誰よりも
何でもないささやかな事さえ　特別な幸せ

どんな景色を見たんだろう
どんな想いをしたんだろう
苦しい時ただ傍にいてくれる　それだけで幸せなんだ
僕らには何が待ってるの？
どんな事も2人で越えて行こう
ケンカした日も
雨上がりの晴れた日も　ずっと・・・



Translation...



Every morning I wake up to the same old life
In the sunlight, you're in my arms

As the alarm rings
The hands of the clock keep ticking; what are you dreaming of?

I won't forget the warmth of your hand in mine
Let's make a lot of memories

What sort of couple will we be in the future?
I don't need anything special, so long as you're smiling
I'm anxious because I love you; when I open my eyes
I softly embrace everything I can feel, to confirm our love

You're like a playful cat
Inside my heart and always by my side

Forget about a mistake you'll never make again
Let's go together into our dream

What do we need?
No one has the answer
You can always cry tears of love

You try to be strong, but you look at me with the eyes of a child
I'll wrap you up, accepting everything, including your tears
I'm unreliable, but I love you more than anyone
Even the littlest things are a special happiness

What have you seen?
What have you experienced?
Just the fact that you'll be by my side in hard times makes me happy
What awaits us?
Let's overcome everything together
On days we fight
And on sunny days after the rain, forever...

What sort of couple will we be in the future?
I don't need anything special, so long as you're smiling
I'm anxious because I love you; when I open my eyes
I softly embrace everything I can feel, to confirm our love

Every morning I wake up to the same old life
In the sunlight, you're in my arms...

Newest Craze is ..

Presenting ........

RYO NISHIKIDO !!!

Ryo-chan wa totemo kakkoo ii ne! Soredewa konno dansu wa sekku-shi ne. lolz.

Only Human by K.

Imagine you are hanging on the brink of survival..

This show will change the way you look at people with disabilities. Their lives become compromised. And the things which they can do become limited. With that, society shd then change the way it looks at people with disabilities. Are they just that insignificant. Shouldn't we take time to put ourselves in their shoes and feel for their plight? Life sometimes seems so short and yet we most often than not take people and things ard us for granted. Working in a call centre has really taught me how to control my temper and to work ard anger to resolve our own emotional problems. Are emotional and monetary problems the culprits of the numbing of our inner souls. Why is it that physical agility and health is so taken for granted. Fate and providence is indeed inexplicable and impossible to explain through sheer language. It can only be felt and experienced through time. Even though there are bad experiences, we cannot control such incidents from befalling on us. But we can only pray for the heavens to be kind to us. It was proven in the show that God himself cannot always answer to our prayers. If not prayers would be so taken for granted as we can just always ask God to help us if we experience difficulties in life. Is life meant to be so full of ups and downs that leaves us with such little time to even slowly think of what we wanna do with our lives? It seems like most of the time we do not even have the choice to choose our own paths. Nonetheless human beings are given the right to freedom and choice in their own times. But how about in God's time? Are we given the chance to live or die in his time? Only God knows. And i thank God for giving me a chance to live. Even if its just this once.

One litre of tears...

This is a true story..



Just watch the show and you'll know .